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what alife !!!! my presnt state is a result of my past actions and now i am paying the price. when iwas younger my health was not priority and now i am afflict ed with kidney disease. my kidneys have failed and now i have to undergo dialysis in order to survive. now presently in order to help in my general well being i have been exercising. have always wondered why i been given this disease ! shouting to the heavens why me !!!!! but i know the reasons i have been neglecting my health and always doing things only for pleasure. luckily i have met the best bosses in the world!! in s'pore i am also been help by the nkf and also by medisave and medishield making it affordable to undergo dialysis. there is no cure for kidney failure and the only treatment is dialysis or to go for a kidney transplant. to qualify for a transplant there many processes to go thru to even to be put on the transplant list. i am going for some scans in sept to see if i can qualify to be on the list. being on dialysis is a big hassle and even after 10 months i am still feel weaken bt the treatments. eating and drinking no longer bring joy with my weight been check during every dialysis session. and also my bllod tests have shown no improvement in my health so i am sad