UN-BLESS LIFE

I have been afflictred by kidney failure and i have been on dialysis for about 2 months this is retribution or karma for a life led by apathy and carelessness towards my health.

Many years i have been living alone and caring for nothing except for my daily livelihood and expenses. i have always been a loner and it was never a problem for me i love to do things in isolation reading have always been a passion, watching movies on dvd have always occupy my time leisurly.

During my younger years my focus have always been on money and career i am cheerful guy and i would easily get work up and i am also sometimes too focus on the task on hand that i brush off and offend people. I have one major failing is that i am lousy at "tripod management"- is the currying of favors of my immediate superiors at work, when i was working i would resist most of the suggestions made by my then bosses but i would put in long hours and perform tasks not wanted by my colleagues. i was tolerated at work because of this but socially i was a cast off and would definitely get voted off if this was an episode of "survivor"

My attitude towards my health always been of avoidance i did not care about my health and would always go on eating binges but stuffing myself on the buffet table and i would especially devour the desserts. i do not smoke nor drink but i am a food and plain water addict and now i am being punish for living this kind of life living an un-bless life and in singapore getting treatment is all about money and i am very worried on whether i can afford treatment in the near future.