The holiday season - torture time

As a kidney patient on dialysis this is my 1st time "celebrating" the holiday season while on dialysis. Being on dialysis is about control and resisting temptation esp on food and fluid, if you read my other posts you will know i am a food addict. Now the question becomes do i avoid my frriends and family invites to their homes ????? The major activity in such gatherings is to eat and be merry but i am not able to eat and drink freely amd my resistance to these temptations is very weak !!! I also do not want to dampen anybody joy with my sickness but i must try .

THE BATTLE OF THE FATS

The battle and challenges of a being a kidney patient on dialysis is about control but the control of even not drinking too much plain water cannot be easily understand by others when telling friends that drinking too much plain water is harmful to my health can see the disbelief in their eyes and posture

my goal now is to lose weight WHY ??? i ask myself this question also it is because my goals in life has changed and there is not too many goals to shoot for. my future is very bleak and can only look forward to almost nothing. i have set the losing weight goal to give me some purpose.

FACTS ABOUT THE FATS

I am a kidney patient for about 4 months now and it is a life time struggle. this disease has a few limitations that is very difficult to follow i am a goal orientated person now my goal is now to remain pain free and to lose weight. during one dialysis section i put myself on a very strict diet and went swimming for 4 hrs straight jus before my dialysis section and after my dialysis while q-ing for my food my blood pressure dipped and iwas so weak that i collapse to the floor. the people from the coffeeshop was scolding and shouting at me for being a drunk ?!! luckily someone had the presence of mind to call for the ambulance and i was hospitalised for 4 days